I’m sorry , I haven’t been able to keep my promise of updating you daily, but I’m still struggling to find consistency.
It’s been more than a week since I last wrote. Every day, I’ve tried to get up and stay active. I’ve pushed myself to continue working on the project, apply for a competition, and look for a job. But no matter what I do, I feel defeated.
I wake up already feeling tired and confused. Every attempt to accomplish something for myself ends up making me feel even more depressed, as if I’m stuck, unable to move forward. I feel like I have no future, or if I do, it’s far from bright.
Even this project, which is supposed to help me, is at a standstill because of the way I feel. I need help, but I have no one to ask, except for someone who might come across The Online Beggar.
The days go by, and I don’t know where I’m heading. At times, it feels like I’m merely existing, waiting for eternal rest.
Still, I try not to give up. Even though I’m confused, and every time I sit in front of my computer, I can’t seem to accomplish what I want, I keep trying. I know that just one positive sign could help me get back on my feet for good.
Just a week ago, I felt better. Then, some challenges came up: I struggled to create a clear social strategy for the project, my father started feeling unwell, and I haven’t been in the best shape myself. All of this has brought me down, but I refuse to give up.
